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Funky, colourful person. Mother to my 3 year old daughter, love going out and having a drink with friends and dancing to music of all sorts, living a very stressful life which is unlikely to change any time soon, doing the best i can with what i have. Im a very loyal person and am well known for chatting the hind legs off a donkey as well as being a great listener. If you need to offload your troubles then im your woman. Tell me anything it will never go any further. Im a giver and a sharer and care a lot for people and im open minded to the point if im not careful my brain will fall out of my head.... I make spelling mistakes, but im busy, forgive me.... Everything happens for a reason, we just don't always know what that reason is..

Saturday 14 May 2011

Catch up...Sorry been rather busy..(and a little lazy)

Thought i had better give an update as i have been so busy i just have not had the time, good news on the clinical skills exams front, got a 4 for both my exams, worked like a nutter revising till all hours...no more exams for me this year!!! Just finished writing a 2000 word essay, Friday was d-day and i managed to get it in on time, not sure how good it is but i did my best, well saying that it was not quite my best but pretty good, to be honest i have realised i am a last miniute dot come kind of girl, i just sit there procrastinating day afetr day knowing full well that my essay is sitting there and i should be doing it, but i find that when i am at home i just cant make myself do it.

My 2yr old daughter is the master of distraction and cannot be left to just amuse herself so i am constantly engtertaining her, its so hard and i get no help from the people who should so its all down to me, at the moment i have one last 3000 word essay due in in just over a week, i have to find about 15 references for it and i have only done about 500 words and 5 references.
But i just cant seem to motivate myself and i dont know why, i can sit for hours doing everything but what i should be. If something else can be done instead then it generally gets done first. No one can say i am not devoted but its like i am deleberatly going out of my way to make stuff hard for myself...

Anyway at the moment i am on a learning difficulties placement in Highgate and i have one week left out of the original four, it is great, not much actual nursing going on but the learners are fab, i have built up some fab theraputic relationships with some of them and will miss them greatly when i leave. I am a serial cryer so i can rest assured that i will shed a few tears, although ill try and save it till i am walking to the station so as not to cry and look like a plonker in front of them all. It can be crap being a pisces sometimes as im an emotional soul at heart and tend to wear my heart on my sleeve quite a bit, i could say that people fairly misjudge me alot of the time, as i am not always the brash confident cocky person that i put across...haha...

I cant believe that i have almost finished the first year of uni, it has gone soo fast, people said it would and i didnt believe them, but soon all being well i will be going on to my branch programme and learning about mental health and not just general nursing and i hope that i make some MH nurse pals or the following 2 yrs will be lonely ones for sure. Def going to miss a few girls from my class especially one of my best buds Emily who i also went to college with and socialise with all the time.

I shall try and update again soon, with all the best intentions life does get in the way...I shall try and be more disciplined..